i found a folder on my desktop with these photos in it from way back in january last night that i had completely forgotten to post! i think the pregnancy brain thing people talk about really is a real thing! or in my case, it is! a few nights ago, i walked into the kitchen to get a cup of water to take my iron with, and ended up coming back into the bedroom without any water…. when i went back into the kitchen to try again, i pulled open the freezer to fill my cup with ice, and i realized i had put my bottle of iron pills in the ice bucket on my first trip into the kitchen a few minutes prior. so currently, it’s safe to say i’m not very on top of life at the moment!
i wanted to share a few stories of things that are happening in my life lately. mostly, little moments of service i don’t want to forget because they have been so sweet while i’m trying to get through one of the hardest things i’ve experienced mentally and physically in my life.
the first was this morning at about 6AM, when my sweet mister samson showed up at my bedside where i was still trying to sleep. josh was at the gym, and i’d been tossing and turning quietly in bed trying to find some sort of position to sleep in for who knows how long. samson arrived beside me and whispered so sweetly, “hi mama, do you have any pain anywhere? can i help?” and put his hands on my upper back where i’ve been experiencing such aches for the last few months (and have probably complained about a bit too vocally since he was so aware that i’ve been having pain). but his gesture meant the world to me. i told him to just come snuggle with me, and how happy i was to see him. and i tried really hard not to cry even though they would have been tears of gratitude for this sweet boy who goes above and beyond to make the people around him happy.
another moment this week that showed such service in my life was by a simple gesture one of my sisters made when we were out on saturday with the kiddos for most of the day. we were about to walk from the west village over to nolita (about 25 minutes worth of walking for an adult based on our location) and since we don’t really bring the stroller out anymore for conrad, he’s definitely been working hard on getting his city legs together for longer days outside. but we’d been in the sun and he’d been playing rather hard at a couple different playgrounds already. he was exhausted and came over to me and asked if i could carry him. i can’t pick him up anymore with this big twin bump, and josh wasn’t with us at this point to help carry him, but my sister swooped in and was like, “get on my shoulders! let’s go!” and walked almost the entire way carrying conrad on her shoulders. maybe i am just wimpy, but that is a long way to walk carrying a 3 year-old, and i know it had to get heavy at moments for her but she never complained about it and happily sang songs with him and played a few silly games with him to keep him occupied and happy as we walked together. it was such a simple little thing. i doubt she’s even thought about it again, but i have.
there have been countless others, like when i overheard conrad asking his sister to read to him, and even though she probably would have rather stayed drawing at the art table, she put her coloring pencils down and climbed into the tent in their playroom to read books to her brothers. or when our neighbors who live below us in our apartment building made a run to costco and knocked on our door after with a hot chicken bake sandwich for me (my favorite thing ever) and surely had no idea i hadn’t yet been able to eat anything that day because i felt nauseous, but i downed that chicken bake so fast since it hit the spot. or a friend who handed me one of those yummy smelling bath bombs in the hallway at church because she knows i’ve been living in my bathtub at night trying to get comfortable. just little things, super small gestures of service that have meant a lot as i’ve been on the receiving end of them. wanting to look for more opportunities to be the one who sees something and does something, paying it forward if you will.
anyway, just wanted to share because it’s been on my mind a lot now as i’ve been the one being served and loved by family and friends. i know there are so many moments in our day where we can be that person for someone else. and i want to do better at just that.
also these photos have absolutely nothing to do with this blog post, and are almost irrelevant since they are from january. but i love blog posts with photos so we’re combining this stuff today!
one last thing…. i remember feeling like my baby bump was SO big when we took these photos and i’m sitting here laughing now that i ever thought that. this bump hadn’t seen anything yet! and every day i wake up bigger than the last, so i’m sure my current bump situation hasn’t seen anything yet, too! it’s been a fun ride, watching this thing expand to sizes i never realized it could. the body is crazy amazing.
anyway, happy wednesday!