the sweetest thing took place a week or two ago when i bought this fluffy pink tutu skirt and tried it on at home in front of my mirror.
eleanor walked into my bedroom about a minute later and gasped, “mama, you look so beautiful!” i thanked her and we must have started chatting about something else because i had taken the skirt off and was hanging it up when she interrupted me and asked, “may i try it on?”
now, this is a big deal because my sweet eleanor usually isn’t super big on pink, anything frilly or princess-y and when dressing herself, always chooses some sort of variation on pajamas. and i love that about her. and it’s taught me a great deal about myself as i try to bite my tongue more and just let her do her thing…. so, you wanna wear a bandana as an eye patch with two t-shirts layered on top of each other and striped pajama pants with your U.S. Open baseball cap to the playground? [bites tongue]… ok!
during the skirt encounter, i reminded her that she owns a similar skirt, a tutu skirt i bought for her maybe a year ago. this was before i learned that – even though she’s only four – she already has a strong preference for choosing her own wardrobe each day and that pretty much anything i ever buy her without her being present tends to not get much love. ;) so when i reminded her of her tutu skirt, i was a little surprised when she said excitedly, “i know! can we wear them together?!”
GIRL, YOU KNOW IT!
i love having a daughter. not just for moments where we’re matching and it’s “cute” or whatever. but because girls are powerful. and while sometimes i get boggled down with thinking about the heaviness of what raising a daughter in this day and age can mean, i am up for the challenge. i screw a lot of things up in the motherhood department each day, but i’m trying and i’m hopeful. and i have a feeling even with all my mess ups, she’s gonna figure it out just fine. eleanor is so full of this curiosity and love for life, something i hope i can cultivate and encourage as she finds her path. i hope she always knows she is beautiful and powerful, in pajamas or a frilly skirt. and i hope she always knows i will forever be her biggest fan.
and now, a bunch of photos because we were having too much fun, and editing them down to just a few has never been my strength…
ps. my skirt is from anthropologie (found HERE) my shirt (which is actually a little mini dress) from HERE. and similar shoes HERE. eleanor’s tutu skirt is no longer online, but it was from crewcuts. her sparkle shoes are by bloch and her shirt is also a little sonnet james dress (lol. promise i wasn’t trying to be that matchy/matchy with the dresses under the skirts, it just happened.)