i just finished frosting somebody’s birthday cake in the kitchen. the entire time i had to fight back the biggest baby tears. i am an emotional wreck today. eleanor is officially two.  part of me is mad today is already february 1st because i am not ready. it is difficult to admit to myself that we are already here. even harder to say aloud. it went too fast. scary fast… they aren’t kidding when they say you blink and they’re fully grown. i have decided to stop blinking from now on.

and so here we are, february 1st 2013.  my baby girl is two years old.

eleanor1lately, eleanor carries around one of those little rubber blue bulb syringe things we got at the hospital when she was born. she uses it as her microphone when she feels like singing. it also serves as her ice cream cone when she feels like having a lick.  she even sleeps with it… and just when i think she is fully out for the night and try to pry it away from her little grasp, she tightens her grip.  ok eleanor, you can sleep with that snot sucker thing, sure. sometimes i crave an ice cream cone in the middle of the night, too.  she has a fascination with the moon. we look for it in all of our books. we look for it when we are outside and we look  for it when we are inside by looking out the window. sometimes we catch it and stick it in our pockets. and sometimes we play catch with the moon before we toss it back into the sky.  the best is when she pretends to roll it under one of the cribs and says, “oh no! moon! where are you?!” and then goes searching the apartment from the moon… “are you here? noooo. MOON! are you here?!….. noooooo….” as she looks under furniture and in closets.

as we are leaving the apartment each day and are about the close the door behind us, eleanor says, “keys, mama? keys?” i did not train her to do this but i’m thankful someone is on top of things around here.  she loves to skype with grandma and grandpa. in the middle of the night a few weeks ago she came and pulled me out of bed and led me to the computer in the front room. she then pointed to it repeatedly while signing “grandma. grandma.” sweet girl. how do you explain to a 2 year old that it is 3 in the morning and grandma is asleep?  she cried.  and then i cried because it is hard living so far from family sometimes.the other day i was sitting on the bed nursing samson and eleanor casually walked into my bedroom.  she leaned up against my bed crossing one leg over the other and rested her head against her hands (one of which held a little blue crayon, naturally) and looked up at me. “oh, hi mama.”  “hi eleanor. what are you up to?”  she used her hands while she spoke very fast about something that sounded very important and i nodded my head back and forth trying to catch little phrases of things i could understand while occasionally offering up responses like, “really?” or “wow!” or “and then what?” when she finished, she turned to walk back out, pausing before she got to my door to blow me a kiss over her shoulder. “bye, mama.”  and then, you know, for the 798th time that day, my heart burst.

i am so thankful for you, eleanor. i love you more than you will ever know. happy birthday,  sweet sweet baby girl.

first photo by carissa gallo.

  1. Rose

    Happy birthday to your darling daughter. It is true what they say…they grow up way too fast like a blink of an eye. Sometimes I wish time would stop just for a while so that we can enjoy their tender toddlers years a little bit longer.

    My oldest is graduating from high school this year, and my youngest just turned three! I still remember her being two as if it was yesterday, and Noah is growing up way too fast!

    Time does fly so enjoy those moments with your children! I know I am!

    **Happy Birthday Eleanor**!

    May it be the best two years you’ve had with many more to come! xo

  2. BonNANAniversaire the baby love!!!
    Margo has three years old now… february one…too***

  3. Anna at Mama Writes

    Your little Eleanor is adorable and quite the character!! Ours is already 4 1/2… So true that time flies!

  4. Erin

    Hope that sweet little girl had the best birthday ever! She has such a personality…I just love it!

  5. It has been a joy to follow your blog and share a small piece of your life. Happy Birthday to sweet Eleanor!

  6. Morgane

    Really lovely!

  7. Oh you make me cry,,,,
    One month ago Zoe-Sophie turs 2, too.
    I know how you feel….

    They are growing sooooo fast…

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY little girl.
    All the best!

  8. One of the sweetest things I have ever read. Happy birthday beautiful girl x

  9. what a beautiful post!

    people weren’t lying when they told me it goes SO FAST. my little girl is 9 months now and i am trying to document once a month on my blog the little quirky things she does to try to savour them and remember them, so i particularly enjoyed hearing what eleanor has been up to. hunting for the moon is just too adorable!

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  11. Cathy

    She looks so adorable in those sunglasses, happy birthday to your little darling :)
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  12. Amie

    Oh so very beautiful!!!! Happy Birthday Eleanor!!

  13. Nicole

    Eleanor sure is a cutie. Happy Birthday, sweet little girl.

  14. mamazhaf

    happy birthday Eleanor,,sweet u :)

  15. Your baby girl is beautiful and smart by the sounds of it. Its so sad that they grow up so fast.

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  16. happy belated birthday to your sweet little darling eleanor. sending her many virtual hugs, kissies and special wishes. God bless you each and your loving home.

    best always,

  17. Lindsay

    I just found your blog, and it’s lovely! My daughter Ingrid will be two in April and I’m saddened by the idea. She also LOVES the moon and will announce that it’s “too cloudy!” when she can’t find it in the night sky.

    So happy I stumbled upon your blog today!

  18. Marlene

    This was such a beautiful post :-).

    Happy Belated Eleanor!

  19. This is such a sweet post!! Just wait till she turns 13, though, that will really be a crusher. (I learned so last July.) The bit about her carrying the bulb syringe and singing into it like a microphone made me laugh out loud. Wonderful stuff!

  20. Sarah

    Very happy birthday Eleanor! I just loved reading about her little moon games. When my brother was wee, one of his favourite books was called “Owl at Home.” At one point, the feathered protagonist becomes totally convinced that the moon is following him. It’s terribly charming.

  21. Jill

    This post made me cry. So sweet.

  22. Kayla @Sealed With a Kay

    Happy belated birthday Eleanor! What a beautiful post, she seems like such a sweetheart!

  23. Sheree H

    Your children sound genuinely precious! My hubby and are still students, so we have a while before we start a family. But your photos/videos/honest account of parenthood make me want to start sooner!

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