baby girl and big bulldog. (and other thoughts for monday.)

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here’s my darling bulldog and baby girl helping mommy in the kitchen. kingsley sits ever so still beside my feet at the counter waiting for me to drop or spill something for him to devour and baby girl makes lots of cooing sounds as she watches me cook or clean up.
i realized the other night that eleanor really loves my singing. she is also the only person in this world who does, which makes me love her even more. i also realize that her love for my singing will definitely change in the coming years once she realizes how terrible my voice actually is, so i’m taking full advantage and singing nonstop while i can.
sometimes i think kingsley and eleanor scheme together before bedtime about which nights they’re going to simultaneously be bad (kingsley) and awake all night (eleanor) to drive me crazy. in fact yesterday morning, after josh and i were up all night long, i told him, “that was the worst night of my life”. then we both glanced over at sleeping eleanor who smiled bigger than she ever has. could it be? ;)
i drove by the hospital where eleanor was born on friday morning for the first time since her birth. and i got so emotional. so much went down there, my little girl took her first breath there, and my life changed forever as i held her for the first time there. i will always have a special place in my heart for that hospital, their staff, and my wonderful doctor.
i have a new found respect for women who have more than one baby. or a baby plus toddlers. or a baby plus any other children. having a baby plus a dog is hard enough work in my eyes. but will you believe me when i say i already miss my pregnant belly and want to do it all over again, and again, and again? that thought is actually quite funny when i think about how many times in those last few hours at the hospital before meeting E that i swore to myself i would never do this ever again. how things can change…
  1. You miss it? I must not be friends with enough women who've been pregnant, because this is the first time I've heard that!

  2. Aura

    I'm 35 weeks along, and all night last night I had dreams about going into labor and those scary moments before meeting my little girl. I can't believe how nervous, excited, ready, and apprehensive I am, all at the same time.
    Our dog weighs 80 pounds, and we've also got 2 cats to add to the mix…I think I'm going to have my hands full :)

  3. She must be able to recognize your singing! My baby will probably love to be read to…because I'm reading all day to my students instead of singing.

    I'm still in the middle of this pregnancy and I'm already thinking about how I want to do this again…so I get that :)

  4. janis

    it's amazing how something can be so hard, but so wonderful at the same time. how can that be?

    so happy for you. can't wait to see how little e. grows up!

  5. Sherry

    I always swore I wouldn't do it again and I always missed my baby belly. Sometimes even now I'll get a hunger pain that feels like a kick and it makes me smile. So happy that you are settling in nicely. Enjoy every second :)

  6. This post almost puts tears in my eyes….in a good way. :) I can't wait to have a baby! It's still at least 2-3 years down the line but your posts makes me look forward to it so much!

    My fiance and I would like to adopt an English bulldog, too but we're concerned about how our dog would react to a baby in the house. How is Kingsley fairing? Are you experiencing any control issues with him now that Eleanor is in the family?

  7. Deanna

    i've got two little boys, and while i don't miss the being pregnant part, i DO miss giving birth! i know it might sound crazy, but i love it! it's such an amazing experience, i would do it over and over again.

  8. Tiffanie

    I'm the same – as soon as I see my baby, I have total amnesia and forget all the things I hated about being pregnant or the terrible last weeks of waiting to be delivered while time stood still. Pregnancy Amnesia, that's what you've got. That's also why I'm pregnant with #8 ~ I'm insane…

  9. you are so cute :) you make me excited to be a mama!

  10. She is adorable! I look forward to pregnancy and children. You were seriously cute pregnant so I can see why you'd miss it…it's a compliment I promise :D

  11. jessica

    my mom-in-law calls it 'labor amnesia'….amazing how quickly you forget the intensity of that pain and long for another…..and another…….and even another. Someone up there really knew what He was doing when he designed our little lady bodies {and minds!}

  12. i have 3 children (7,5,1) and when i had my first i never experienced love like that before and thought "how could i ever love another like this?" and you do. the only difference is that you know what to expect (sort of) but the love? the love is always so amazing. the best thing in this world..:)

  13. Cambria

    I love reading your updates!! You are such an amazing mother!! I pray that you will get some sleep and that Eleanor continues to be healthy!


  14. joolee

    oh yes, how things change! cute newborns and sweet smiles make you forget all the bad parts, huh? (i.e. LABOR and NO SLEEP!!) :) our third is now 8 months old and she is such a good little girl and the older siblings are so darling with her that it's easy to think of having a fourth already….whaaaaaat??? i must be crazy…

  15. Her love of your singing may end sooner than you think. I'm not a bad singer – I used to do shows and things – but my 2-year-old daughter will say "NO! NO SINGING!" as soon as I sing anything other than, say, Itsy Bitsy Spider.

  16. Vanessa

    I've learned to never say never when it comes to parenthood, I almost always end up doing exactly what I swore I would NEVER do! :)

  17. Funny…I thought I was a terrible singer…but my kids have changed my view of my voice. Children always love their mama's voice, no matter how many times it cracks.

  18. Jessica

    That is so cute, can you tell me what E is sitting in? Is that a high chair laying down?
    @baby mama is right, my two year old always tells me to stop singing it is so funny! i love to sing but i sound horrible! I hope E continues to love your singing!
    What a bundle of joy she is!!!

  19. The more the baby grows, the more Kingsley will be attached to her. He's be a true big brother.

    Thanks for sharing, and (I believe I have, but) if I haven't said it before: CONGRATS!

  20. She's so precious. I'm so happy for you. I love reading your blog and watching your life unfold so beautifully.

  21. I love this post! I also miss being pregnant and now that my Lily is 10 months I am getting excited for it again, although not the morning sickness.

    My dog is 3 and she is really good but I like to say I have 2 kids because wow, they are both a lot of work.

  22. i said i'd "never" get pregnant again while i was pregnant (ante-partum depression) and then during the labor (i think i know what it feels like to be steam rolled very
    s l o w l y) but i would like at least two more! she's precious. xx

  23. My oldest girl, (of three), is 4 years old, and she loves to have some songs along with her bedtime routine. I do not have the nicest voice, I swear, I'm probably most comfortable as a tenor, and not a good one. She has never seemed to notice before though, so that was great for me.
    Well, a few months ago, she had the sweetest little 15 year old girl as her babysitter. This girl was nice enough to sing her songs that night when she put my daughter to bed.

    That ruined it for me. The next day my daughter told me that the babysitter sang like a princess. Then, that night, when I was singing to her, she said, "you don't really sound like a princess mom, can't you sing like a princess?"

    Don't feel bad for me though, I thought it was really funny.

  24. Alivia

    Thank you for your happy, honest words; they brightened up my dreary Monday!

  25. Loved this post!

  26. After having my first boy (I now have three) I developed a great respect for single mothers and an appreciation for my husband. I can't imagine doing it all on my own with out sometime to come home and help.

  27. I believe it. There's something about their sweet little faces that make it desirable, regardless of the sleepless nights. (only a baby can do that!)

  28. I have had c-sections with my 3 kids,(5,3,and 7mos.) and even with all that I still want a million!! Isn't it amazing how soon we forget? A gift maybe? Also, keep singing my kids love to hear me sing. And I am seriously not that good. I hum alot too and I'll notice my older two humming while the color or play legos! Children are anamazing gift. :)

  29. oh just the sweetest! i agree i don't know how moms do it with toddlers and a baby… or as a single mom!! holy moly! can't imagine!

  30. oh just the sweetest! i agree i don't know how moms do it with toddlers and a baby… or as a single mom!! holy moly! can't imagine!

  31. Rachael

    Aww. Sweet post.
    Did you sing when you were pregnant? Maybe Eleanor heard you then and loves it now!

  32. My baby is almost 5 months old and I have been DYING to get pregnant again since he was 6 weeks!! I have 7 brothers and sisters so I want a big family, but when I told my mom that I wanted to get pregnant again she told me "It's because you have such a good baby" :)

  33. Nuha

    this is so sweet!! seriously, I just want to hug you and baby eleanor!

  34. janel

    I love this post! It made me smile!

    P.S. I sing to my kids all the time, off key and all! and right after I had my second child I said very loudly never again, then change my mind once I held my little guy… Kids are the best!


  35. Renée

    Oh you are so sweet!

  36. Haley K

    Oh Naomi I loved this post! That picture of your babe & your pup is just adorable :) And isn't it the best that she loves hearing you sing!? I have no doubt your voice is her favorite :) And AMEN to having a greater respect for all mothers (especially with multiple kiddos) And also AMEN to missing being pregnant (I miss having him be WITH me all the time…and feeling him move around… You seem like such a sweet mama :) Happy Monday!

  37. This made me smile. I'm terrified of pregnancy and giving birth, but every mother feels the same way after she does: she would do it again in a heartbeat. Congratulations again on your beautiful new babe.

  38. it makes you hopeful that you loved being pregnant so much.

  39. becky

    These sorts of posts are my favourites of yours—the longer ones, the more involved ones. I am grateful, really, for you letting so many people into your world to watch as your family has grown. Eleanor is SUCH a little cutie-pie and it is extremely reassuring to know that you are already wanting another. I like that you miss your pregnant belly—actual pregnancy worries me far more than a baby as tiny and as fragile as they are. It's lovely to know you are all doing well, too!

  40. KO

    Those first few weeks are so precious, yet SO exhausting! I remember thinking, "I REALLY think I might die from exhaustion!" It was really hard. Just know that it gets easier and the good days make up for the sleepless nights. I have a 1 year old now and still don't know how people have more than 1. I think sometimes you have to just take the leap of faith (at least that's what I'll have to do for round 2).

  41. Thank you for sharing your sweet thoughts this morning. Your comment about Eleanor be the only one who loves your singing was cute.

  42. Just checking in! Looks like you are doing great!!
    Glad you got to visit with your sisters and little brother!


  43. Li

    You are very beautiful, I just wanted to let you now. And you four make a lovely family!

  44. i'm sure you have reservations about sharing your birthday story – such a personal and special experience – but even that little part about the hospital/eleanor taking her first breath was so sweet to read. what a lovely little post.

  45. C and N

    so sweet. I love your joy!

  46. Thats amazing you want to be pregnant again? You go girl! I wish I could say that- I love my little boy but I wish they would just pop out and not have to be pregnant again haha!

  47. Pamela

    Awesome post. Yes, they are hard work, and so amazingly wonderful at the same time.

    Right after my third daughter was born I turned to my husband and told him I wanted to do this one more time. He was like "let's just take this one at a time!!". :) Though I still think about having a fourth, lately there have been days when three sounds pretty good to me. Children are such a blessing. They make us grow in ways I never thought possible.

    I've put my career (dental hygiene) and even my side business (jewelry design) on hold because I know that for me, I just can't do it all at once, and I don't want to lose focus on raising my little ones. Time just goes by way too fast.

    Blessings to you and your darling family!

  48. Chelsea

    i said the same thing when i was delivering conrad (never again!) but look at me now…. I'm pregnant again with my 2nd!

    Pregnancy isn't my favorite thing in the world though. I have a lot of respect for woman who do it with such grace- i am not one of them. i dont really enjoy it much.

    You rocked the pregnant belly though! go girl!

  49. Natalie

    Your words are beautiful, Naomi.

  50. Sherice

    oh, savor this time… as you are. It is so hard and yet so amazing all at the same time. My baby is almost 3 and I am missing that sweet~fresh from Heaven spirit that you feel right now. You will get into a groove, and forget about this craziness!:)

  51. This is precious!

  52. Brooke

    You seem to be rockin' the mommy title! I'm sitting at 35 weeks and I can't wait to get this kid out! I have tons of respect for women who have multiple children too. This is my first and we have an 85lb lab and a 500 sq ft apartment… It's going to be interesting with a new baby!

  53. i love first time mommies…they finally get a glimpse into how us other mom's feel ;} it's hard, it's fun, it's tiring, and we want to do it again and again. I'm on my fourth baby, and after my first i remember thinking "how do people have more than one!?" but…as you now know just as you quickly forgot those last pregnant hours of wanting to be done, you missed it just as quickly. same goes for the sleepness nights and the terrible two's and the tantrums {later to come ;} but kids are wonderful, beautiful miracles…even if they do get older and tell you to stop singing cuz they realized you aren't any good :} {i am tone deaf, but love to sing, go figure…} enjoy your beautiful baby, and more to come! xoxo, buffalo gal

  54. i LOVE this post and you are just amazing! what a beautiful little girl you have, you are so lucky!!

  55. They are adorable together! Your so lucky that they get on (during daytime only I guess!?) :)

    Best wishes and here is so sleeping through the night!

    Lindy xxx

  56. allison

    i love following your blog…E is so, so precious! i just wanted to write to say that i had the same feeling about missing my pregnant belly as i was leaving the hospital w/our sweet little emmett. i saw another mama going in for an appointment and it made me grab for my phantom belly. love that!

  57. Marfio

    A baby-dog conspiracy – those two are going to be as thick as thieves! M xx

  58. i love that Eleanor loves your singing and i love that you love singing to her. Go ahead, sing non-stop Mumma :) It's precious xx

  59. I am newer to your blog, and I love it! I too miss being pregnant, miss my belly, miss the glowing feeling that comes with it. But as my baby is 4 months and my other little guy just turned 2 last week, while dealing with RSV (both boys) I realize I am good for another 18 months!

  60. Jill

    I am SO glad I'm not the only one who drives by the hospital and gets emotional. I was seriously wondering if I was crazy for feeling that way!

    I've only commented two or three times before, but I can't remember if I ever said congratulations! Baby girl is beautiful! Don't you love having a girl?! I do! :)

  61. I know it's crazy eh? Right after I had Adelaide (like RIGHT after) I laughed and looked at Levi. "I want to do it again," I said. He shook his head in disbelief and the nurse smiled. "You wouldn't believe how many women say that," she said.

  62. I remember being in transition thinking about how I never wanted to do that again. Of course, after having my first baby home for 5 minutes I immediately wanted more kids. haha! And I have a 5 month old little boy and a little girl that turned 2 on Feb. 18th. The first few weeks with a newborn and toddler are so much work, but once you get into a flow, it's AWESOME.

  63. the names you & your husband pick remind me of the life aquatic… kingsley "ned" zissou/plimpton and eleanor zissou.
    just sayin'.

  64. love your journey… it is so sweet

  65. erin

    I've been following your blog for a few years now and this post brought tears to my eyes.
    I had my little girl last April and it's amazing how much pain and joy they can bring all at once. All the late nights, no naps and fussiness are all worth it.
    I too thought how I would never want to go through that process again but when I read how you "miss your pregnant belly" I had a little laugh because I totally do too!! All the love and luck in this newborn stage! It just gets better and better, and easier and easier!

  66. I love this post, and I love my two little babies, 1 and 3 yrs. When he is sad, my 3 year old always has me hold him and sing "Gee I'm Glad It's Raining" and "A Few of My Favorite Things" (is that the name of the song from The Sound of Music??). He doesn't know how poorly I sing and I just love it.

  67. Actually, my mom sang to us when we were babies and we all still love her voice. She claims no one else does besides us.

    Maybe she'll always like your voice. :)

  68. how cute. our family dog used to babysit me too :)

  69. Chessa!

    this is so beautiful. my sister has a bulldog (this is her third!) and when my first niece was born the oldest kid, Homer (the four-legged kind of kid), would sleep by her crib guarding her…she used to say they were like Beauty and the Beast. Kingley and E will be pals.

    The way you describe your experience and how you felt during childbirth and after is so much like my own. I was just ready – it was a heat wave, I was huge and nervous and impatient – and when I met her it was like all that anxiety never existed. these babies are the most wonderful gift. I'm so happy for you.

  70. Chessa!

    PS–I miss it too. Mostly I miss the kicks and nudges from inside…the heartburn not-so-much but I loved being pregnant too.

  71. Brimaca

    I have a 5 yr. old, a 3 yr. old and a 6 mo. old. It's busy and sometimes difficult. However, I am already planning number 4 for as soon as I'm done breastfeeding (when baby is 1). I love being pregnant and I LOVE labor (you know, after the epidural for me). It's all so amazing.
    (Oh and I also have two dogs, we had more pets but we sold them when I felt like my head was going to explode).