right now.

{we might have taken full advantage of the mothers-to-be parking spot last May when we found out we were expecting. i know it was probably 5 months too early to take advantage of such a privilege, but we sort of didn’t care.}
there are so many little things i love about where i am right now in my life that i kind of want to just pause everything and stay here a little while.
i love being pregnant. i’ve wanted this baby for so long that i’m trying hard to just savour all these little moments where i get the baby to myself before i share it with the world. even the moments that aren’t so fun, like vomiting on the corner of east capitol and 6th because i can’t get to a bathroom fast enough, or not sleeping for long stretches at night because there is a big tummy in my way… or worrying about the kind of mother i will be and all the mistakes i will most definitely be making… or even popping the button off my pants because they’re officially too snug and having to walk around trader joe’s with my pants falling off. even those moments, i want to remember. because they are still special. and they make the other wonderful pregnancy moments even more thrilling… like seeing baby wiggle around on the ultrasound screen, or those little kicks that i pretend are just for me… kind of like, “hey mom, i already love you!” while i wait in line at the grocery store or sit in traffic on the freeway. i want a big family, but it’s possible this is my only pregnancy in life, so i’m trying extra hard to just be in the moment and savour it.
UPS delivered our crib last week and josh and i were like little kids on christmas morning setting that thing up together. it’s a tiny crib that’s going beside our bed for these next many months and since we set it up right before bed, it was the best thing to wake up and see the following morning. i wonder what it will feel like to wake up and see a tiny human inside that crib soon.
the other night, josh and i took kingsley on a late walk. the sun had already gone down and it was cold out. we were both bundled up in hats and big down jackets. and yet, we were both eating ice cream sandwiches while we circled the block. josh said “look at us!” and i laughed so hard. it’s been so nice just being the two of us for these past few years… i’ve loved this little chapter of our life together and it’s kind of bittersweet seeing it close. but it’s so so so wonderful knowing that just around the corner is something we’ve dreamed and prayed and wished for since the beginning. next june, for the first time in a few years, i’ll be wishing for something else when i blow out my birthday candles.
baby davis, we are so so so excited to meet you soon!
  1. C and N

    This is so sweet; I wish you all the best.

  2. love this…its very sweet!!

  3. What a sweet post! I loved reading this, it brought back so many memories of my first pregnancy and baby. The throwing up in public, the sweet kicks…I even announced my most recent pregnancy by taking a picture of my car in an "expectant mothers" spot and posting it on my blog!!

    Those first years when it's just you and husband are so amazing, but when you meet that little baby, life changes in an instant, and it's even MORE amazing. You're going to love it. And you're going to be great.

  4. this was so sweet, it gave me warm fuzzies. :) i'm thrilled for you and this new journey you're on. <3

  5. Rhianne

    Honestly Naomi, I don't think I've ever been so happy for two people I've never met :) enjoy absolutely everything!

  6. Tiffany

    Pregnancy is truly magical and babies are the best gifts. God is so good. Congratulations once again. Cherish every moment. :)

  7. Reading this makes me even more sure that my husband and I have made the right decision to not have children. If you are going to bring a person into the world you must feel as passionate about it as you obviously do, and that is how it should be.

  8. Sher

    Being a longtime reader of your blog, it's amazing to see you entering another chapter of your life! Will be reading all the way on baby davis chapters to come:)

    xx

  9. holtkamp

    love this post naomi! what a wonderful way to savor the moment. best wishes to you and your growing family! :)

  10. What a wonderful post! Brought tears of joy to my eyes because I can feel your happiness beaming through your words. Savour every moment

  11. I wanted to thank you for writing this post. I have not been blessed with having a baby yet, but a lot of my friends and family have and have totally taken it for granted. A close friend told me that after 5 years of trying to get pregnant that the doctors told them to give up. After receiving that news she was around a friend who had just had the baby and was complaining about how hard and terrible it was. It breaks my heart that people don't understand what a blessing and miracle babies are and really don't enjoy their pregnancies.

    So thank you, it's so refreshing to hear someone enjoy even the worst parts of being pregnant and having children. I wish more people would adopt your attitude and realize how many women out there would give anything to be experiencing the morning sickness, aches, and sleepless nights. I just hope that someday I'll be happy to be busting buttons off my pants!!

    Congratulations!!
    Emma
    olivebea.blogspot.com

  12. J

    I love it when you write posts with a more personal touch like this one. I am 36 weeks and I am just a complaining mess of discomfort at this point, so your post reminded me that I should be grateful for this experience. I wish you all the love and happiness in the world!

  13. how sweet is that! you two are going to make amazing parents. Have a great Thanksgiving eating for TWO! :)

  14. Loved this post. You're going to be a wonderful mom. I never wanted kids and when our first came along (surprise!) I spent the whole time worrying that I would screw it up bc I never daydreamed about babies like my friends. My dh told me I'd do fine bc if I was going to be a bad mother, I wouldn't spend so much time worrying about doing it right.
    We have 4 now (last set was twins!) and I feel so blessed. Tired. Gosh, every day is tiring, but blessed. You enjoy this to the max. As painful and wretched as my last pregnancy was, I was sad for it to end bc I knew it was the last time. Even on bed rest, with Jake trying to stick his feet through my spine and Tucker hiccuping through my belly button, I wanted more time.
    I'm so happy for you. I don't really "know" you, other than following your blog and twitter, but you are an inspiration. You remind me almost daily that life is a gift for which I should always be thankful.
    Congrats, Momma!

  15. I think pregnancy teaches you to love imperfection. I had an easy pregnancy (thank God), but I also had some difficult moments. And you know what? I loved them too! I loved the whole experience, the good and the bad. Just like you. It's the same once the baby is born. You love the good and the bad. You'll love watching your baby sleep (I could do this for hours!) and smelling his little head and playing with his tiny fingers. It will be difficult to wake up three, four, five, six times at night to a screaming baby and to adjust to a different life, but at the end, you will love that too because that's what parenthood is all about.
    I cannot wait to meet your little lady/man. This little person is so lucky to have such loving parents!
    <3
    andrea

  16. Suzy

    This is really personal and sweet. I liked this post a lot! I have a feeling I might feel the same if I (hopefully?) maybe have a baby someday.

  17. Maren

    naomi, this is the sweetest little post I have ever read. I am so glad you are so excited to be a mother. My husband and I are also trying to have a baby- wish us luck! I'm so happy that you finally got your wish. Best of luck on the remaining weeks of your pregnancy! You'll be a wonderful mother.

  18. Brittany

    Cutest mini crib ever!

  19. I love this post! Thank you for sharing your precious moments.

  20. naomi i am so happy for you. i had a feeling your sadness last year had to do with pregnancy. but maybe not.

    anyways i am so happy for you. you are going to be the most amazing mother. this baby is going to be so loved and that's what's makes a great mom. even if you forget to bring extra diapers or can't get him/her to sleep for the life of you, or he get's a few scrapes when he's learning to walk.

  21. What a beautiful post. I can't wait to hear all about Baby Davis! :D

    Happy Thanksgiving.

  22. Sum

    Awww…
    That's so cool how they have such a parking space that exists!

  23. Jennifer

    Naomi, this is one of the loveliest, most heartfelt things I have ever read. Your baby is so loved and will be part of a wonderful family. Congratulations to you, Josh, and Kingsley, and Baby Davis who will soon be joining you!

  24. such a wonderful post and I can tell you, the moment you'll meet your little one is just more breathtaking than you would think now. My baby turned one in september and the first year past so fast! But we will be mom and dad for the second time in may and I just can't wait for the moment the little one lies beside me and I can't sleep the whole night just because of looking at the little perfect face all the time!

    I wish you and your little family all the best!
    Greetings from another little family in Vienna (Austria)

  25. Jaime

    I love reading your posts, and love that you are so excited to be a mommy soon. I haven't had children yet, but have always wanted them & became pregnant last Nov. Sadly, it wasn't meant to be, but your sheer happiness & enthusiasm for every part of your pregnancy journey, good & bad, gives me hope! One day, i hope to be as good a mom-to-be as you & only wish I knew friends with the same beautiful outlook on life as you. Baby Davis is so lucky to be blessed with parents like you & Josh. x

  26. Renata

    This post was heart touching. I think it is amazing how we people form all around the world feel thrilled and emotional about same stuff… I guess that is God.

    Right now i don't feel like having kids, dunno, don't wanna be a mom, but i'm almost sure that someday i'll change my mind… Because being pregnant is SUCH a BLESSING most of us women have!! I feel really blessed for being able to carry another being inside… that is so incredibly awesome!! COngrats for all this, your thankfulness and warmth is really inspiring :)

    Oh and Josh… i've seen some videos of you both on the web… He's a wonderful guy too, always making you laugh… i heart you both!! ^_^

  27. I also wanted a large family (that mormon thing!) I had my first two real quick and then was diagnosed with infertility and can no longer get pregnant. I wish I would have known, so that I would have cherished all the little moments more! Live it up and enjoy every bit.

  28. l.k.

    my husband and i have been trying to get pregnant for a while, but i have pcos and hardly ever ovulate and have horrible ovarian cysts. trying to get pregnant is honestly heartbreaking, but what makes it worse is when people complain about being pregnant and being a mom. they don't realize that it kills me (and i'm sure others) inside. it's all i really ever wanted. anyway, i just wanted to let you know that it's refreshing to see someone so excited about being pregnant. good luck and congratulations! you are awesome :)

  29. Alexa

    Just read this post now – and it truly made me smile. I'm so happy for you and wish you and baby and Josh and Kingsley the best!

  30. Sofia

    Nsomi I loved this post! You made my eyes tear up.
    You are going to be a wonderful mother and am so glad that you get to have this new addition to your family!
    I love when others take the time to enjoy the little things in life.
    Can't wait for you to show us this little boy or girl!
    Til then, enjoy every bump and kick this baby gives you!
    ;D

  31. this is so precious.

    and i am just dying at how cute that little crib is!

  32. Aya

    This is so lovely–the sentiment and how you expressed it.

  33. Lori

    naomi, i love (love, love) your blog. some days when i'm bored at work…i scroll all the way back to where your blog all started and re-read all of your posts. what a lovely life you live. you are a lucky, lucky woman to have such a beautiful husband and two beautiful kids (three! kingsley too!). i just wanted to comment on this post because it is so heart felt and beautiful (as are you). xxoo

    http://www.black-girl-with-bangs.blogspot.com