dear life.

sometimes i get very sad. sometimes i have an awful morning.
i try my hardest to stay positive and trust in the Lord but sometimes it gets really hard.
i am currently trying to learn patience and understanding. 
i am also trying not to compare or feel resentment or anger. 
i’ll be honest and tell you it’s a constant struggle for me. 
especially this past year as my life has progressed but i feel i haven’t in the few ways i wanted.
i love my heavenly father so much, and am thankful that he is there. 
i am thankful that i can pray and feel comforted and have peace in my heart and know that i matter. i just wish it didn’t take me so long to see that each time and that i wasn’t such a baby.
and honestly, i wish life was a little easier on me this morning. 
but so this post doesn’t turn into too big of a downer, this photo is of my little brother isaac taken last year on the brooklyn bridge. it made me smile this morning so i thought i’d share.
  1. I’m sorry you’ve had a tough morning. I do hope it gets better for you.
    And what a great comfort it is to pray to Heavenly Father…I can’t imaagine not having the power of prayer in my life!

    Just keep pressing forward :)

  2. jenna

    HIS strength is made perfect in weakness.

    Sometimes I just have to pause and remember that. It seems to help push out those sneaky, lingering feelings of hopelessness, and then that peace can fill me more fully.

    I pray HIS strength will fill you this morning and change the direction of your day.

  3. Candice

    I just found your blog the other day, and I’m really enjoying it!

    I’m so sorry you had a rough morning, and I hope it gets better as the day goes on. Thanks for being so real and open with this post…sometimes I think I’m the only one who feels this way at times…like everyone else has it all together. Thanks for sharing your life.

  4. lindley

    when this happens to me, i start running through the things i am so grateful for already. it helps to shift your energy. thank you for your honesty.

  5. Annie

    I rarely post on other blogs (though maybe I should start!) but wanted you to know how much your honesty touched me this morning. I, too, have had a rough few days, and although I trust my Father will provide, I get frustrated sometimes. It was refreshing to see someone else be so honest about the same kind of struggle. I’ll have to agree with my dear friend Jenna’s comment: His strength is what will get us through. May it strengthen you this morning and in the mornings to come! :)

  6. Bradford

    that’s NYC life…you’ll have mornings like this from time to time. hope your afternoon was amazing…and if not, you have someone to come home to…

  7. becca

    aw, i hated my sad new york city days. i hope you cheer up soon.

    also, huge congrats on selling out of your headbands. i think that is great.

  8. Anonymous

    i am thankful for your honesty. one of the reasons i love your blog so much is because you are so real. i feel like this a lot too, but just count all those awesome blessings you have in your life like your dear husband or good health or glamourous nyc life! things will get better. you are a doll and i so enjoy each of your posts.

  9. j.

    can i be completely honest & i tell you that this is one of my favorite things you have written thus far?

    your life looks pretty perfect from an outsider's perspective & it is nice to see that EVERYONE feels this way sometimes.

    somedays life is really hard, but then other days, life is magical. it is that contrast that helps us appreciate the amazing & recognize how lucky we are to have them.

    feel better soon. :)

  10. Carolyn

    Well all I know is you are too gorgeous/talented/blessed/creative to not be smiling all the time. Keep your head up girl!

  11. Meg

    i love you so much…can we play soon?

  12. Danielle

    I’m so sorry you’re having a tough time. Whenever I’m upset, I love to browse through your blog. It makes me feel so happy that there is someone out there like me with such passion and zest for life.

    I hope that you feel better. Drink some tea, and surround yourself with loved ones. Things will look up soon. :)

  13. Liv

    *sigh* I feel the same way EVERY day. But thank goodness for prayer.

  14. Meghan

    I hope your day gets better!!!

    One of my favorite sayings is “If He leads you to it, He will lead you through it”. Here’s hoping that you get through the day!

  15. this is how i’m feeling too.

  16. Jessa

    thank you for sharing. it’s good to know that I’m not the only one who has rough days. strangely enough, today was by far the hardest morning i’ve had since moving to ny and reading your thoughts this morning comforted me. thank you also for sharing your beautiful thoughts on our Heavenly Father. He really does love us and wants only for our happiness.

    again, thanks

  17. Charlotte A.

    Aren’t you glad that Heavenly Father is always watching over us?! I love that we can just go to Him in prayer to vent! :) Have you ever listened to any music by Lenka? Her song “We Will Not Grow Old” is a cute song for couples.

  18. Kimbirdy

    Ack! Life can be so overwhelming at times. Isn’t it amazing how a wee little prayer can bring such large amounts of peace? And look at all the good your honesty has brought to all these readers! As a pick-me-up, I recommend tying colorful balloons all around your neighborhood to bring cheer, and/or dancing wildly about your apartment to 99 Luftballoons. :)

  19. Laura

    Aah I’m sorry you’re feeling a bit rubbish today. Drink tea. There are very few things a nice cuppa and a biscuit can’t improve.

  20. Em & Gar

    girl. you’re the bomb. i love you so much and am sad we are always so far away from each other. If this has anything to do with the stuff we talked about when you were here…well it will come, I just know it. you are in my prayers and my thoughts. you are one amazing girl and i just know heavenly father is saving something really really amazing for you. :)

    xo

  21. I am sorry you your morning isn’t great. You have a great blog!

  22. Lisa

    I have really hard days sometimes too. I love looking at your blog. Sometimes I envy your exciting life in NYC. We are so lucky to know that we have a Heavenly Father who loves us and hears our prayers. I too have been struggling lately. Me and my husband have been trying to get pregnant for about a year and a half now. I cry a lot. But I know that all I can do is put my trust in the lords hands, and he’ll take it from there. Keep being wonderful and inspiring.
    xoxo
    lisa

  23. Cheryl

    I hope you’re feeling better. It’s one of those days, I’m feeling it too :(

    Cheer up though! We love you.

  24. but doesn’t it feel great to know you’re SO loved?

    (and even by people who don’t even know you. that’s pretty special, don’t you think?)

    start a smile today.

    love,
    nicole

  25. jeni

    Thinking of you. This too shall pass. You bring smiles to all those who read you blog. It’s perfectly ok to take a day off. Feel free to cry, scream, eat more chocolate . . . we all have to do this some days. The eat more chocolate thing I do more days than I should.

  26. Stacy

    I just wanted yo tell you, I stumbled across your blog yesterday, you guys are so cute together, you made me so excited to rush home from work and kiss my great husband. I am going to build a fort tonight in our living room, and camp out with him. Thanks for the great idea, and the great blog.

  27. Stacy

    oh, one more thing, I am so excited for you to get more headbands in the store, I can wait to sport one!

  28. Kaylen

    Oh dear, I’m sorry about your morning. I know your day has gotten better since then!

    Also, I just wanted to say – hearing you say that I have a hard time not comparing yourselves to others…I took great comfort in that. My boyfriend has a twin brother who is getting married, and it’s all I can do to not say every five minutes… “why not me?”

    So, thank you. Hard days suck but knowing that you aren’t the only one kind of makes it a little bit better.

  29. Andrea

    I’m glad to see that someone who is so happy can show that they have off days too. I love your blog. Cute picture of your bro. :)

  30. kate.

    I’m pretty sure you have reached celebrity status on so many levels. You are the epitome of everything that we all want to become! Thank you for being a real human being, and being honest about life as you really do see it. You are a great inspiration to me.

  31. Amen.

  32. Holly

    hope your afternoon is much brighter. :)

  33. Rock It

    i also loved your honesty. it’s hard to not compare or feel resentment or anger like you said, it’s great that you can pray. i’m thinking of finding an outlet that lets me feel in touch with our Lord but its been so long since i last prayed that it feels fake. and thats the last thing i want to feel when speaking to the Lord.

    The good thing is that you are usually happy so like they say this too shall pass.

  34. Martha

    Thanks for sharing Naomi. I get down too and I just love having a Father in Heaven who cares about each one of his children. Little brothers are the best…I have two!I hope tomorrow morning is better for you :) And you’re gorgeous as always.

  35. Anonymous

    your life does look very exciting from the outside perspective, full of great friends, good food and sweet husband… so it is nice to see everyone gets down now and then. keeps us all real and connected!

  36. Louise

    How can you be sad when you have the worlds hottest hair? Seriously – every picture on this website makes me almost die with jealousy. No matter how I try my fringe (sorry, ‘bangs’) just will NOT do what yours does, and i’ve been trying for oh, 4 or 5 years!

    Plus, the lipstick is fab-u-lous. May I ask the shade/brand?

    Keep smiling!! It will all get better

    love a new reader – NZer living in Japan!

  37. ello dawling.
    i don’t know you. nope not at all.
    but i know exactly how you’re feeling.
    how grateful i am for our Father in Heaven! we’re so blessed! even when things are hard. (even when the absolutely suck.)
    i wish you the very very best.
    xo
    estee

  38. milly

    it will all be ok in the end… and if its not, then its not the end. =)

    lovemily

  39. *big hug*

    tomorrow will be better.
    and if not, take your own advice and take another close look at the photo of your adorable kid brother in his wild ear-flap hat :)

  40. you clearly dont need any reassurance from me… a girl in hawaii you dont even know… but i read this post and thought, “huh. really? a girl like her feels this way sometimes too??”

    you are such a brilliant force who inspires many and who inspires me, a girl in hawaii you dont even know. i am sorry you had a day like today, but your honesty in sharing about it also inspires others who may feel the same from time to time. it reassures that we all feel this way and we can all pick ourselves up.

    thanks :)

  41. emily

    *hugs* and prayers for brighter days ♥♥♥

  42. i know you don’t me me, but i follow your blog from time to time. i am sympathetic to how you are feeling today. i do understand, esp as of late (read blog – kinda personal but it helped me to get it out). keep your faith alive and your heart open. since my dramatic episode, i decided to wake up and think why I AM the luckiest girl in the world and i choose 3 things. it could be that i am alive after almost dying from the loss of blood (dramatic, yes) or that my oldest kitty, Oliver is so soft and i love that he sleeps with me under the covers (cuter and less drama). what this does is it reminds me that i do love my life and that these struggles make you stronger and better and a true “rockstar”

    you will be in my prayers.
    Summer B.

  43. Shug

    Naomi – just like you were there for me.. I hope you are feeling better now. you are a wonderful person, have this very intriguing writing style and in general just a really down to earth, smart, sophisticated person. In fact, I’ll admit I am honored to know who you are! I enjoy reading your blog and seeing how fantastic everyone else thinks it is too. It’s actually quite amazing. Anyways, you know this… because you told me.. several months ago and I read it daily.

    “I REALIZED THAT IF EVERYTHING WORKED OUT EXACTLY HOW WE WANTED IN LIFE, ACCORDING TO OUR TIME LINE AND HOW WE PERCEIVED HAPPINESS, ETC, THAT THERE WOULD BE NOTHING TO WORK TOWARDS HERE IN THIS LIFE AND NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO IN THE NEXT LIFE. HEAVENLY FATHER REALLY IS MINDFUL OF OUR GOOD DESIRES AS MUCH AS HE IS OUR PAIN. AND I KNOW IF YOU STAY CLOSE TO HIM AND WORK WITH HIM (RIGHT) NOW, HE WILL BLESS YOU.” -NAOMI MEGAN (10/11″

    Anyways.. I appreciate your friendship and hope that if you need anything, feel like chatting you let me know… Stay positive your hubby and you are perfect.

  44. prayer and pleasant photographs are the way to better mornings for sure dear friend! You’re struggles are those of many others. You are not alone…be comforted in that knowledge too.

  45. The Tub

    I am feeling this way right now, Taz