the birthdays of my three babies are always such an emotional time for me. every year, i think maybe it’ll get easier, but every year proves me wrong. this sweet baby girl is SEVEN years old today, and i can hardly express how she has made these past seven years the very best years of my life. she is my first born, and because of that, i feel lucky to have a special bond with her as we’ve gone through so many firsts together. from feeling her move in my tummy for the very first time during my pregnancy, to her birth and holding her, my baby girl, in my arms, for the very first time. from nursing to first foods and steps, first words and drawings, a first lost tooth or first hair cut, first day of school or learning something new…. it’s amazing how much these experiences have meant to me that i’ve gotten to be a part of them and also a part of her life so far.
eleanor is so very patient with me, every single day. i might have a seven year old, and i might be a mom of three with two more on the way, but it doesn’t make me an expert. and every day there is a new learning curve i try to tackle as a lot of this stuff doesn’t totally come naturally to me. i’m thankful for her forgiveness and constant love. she could move mountains with the way she loves and i can’t wait to see the lives she’ll touch in the years to come because of her capacity to love.
i remember the moment she was born like it was just last night. it didn’t go anything like the way i envisioned it in my head, or according to my three page birth plan i so readily and confidently handed over to my doctor weeks prior (lol. first time mom.) by the time she was born, i’d already been in the hospital for a day and half of painful and exhausting labor. when she finally arrived, by an emergency c-section that two nurses had to hold me down for because i couldn’t stop shaking so badly in the operating room, i remember being so worried that the current state i was in, shaking and so emotional and literally all over the place, was a sign of the kind of mother i might be. i remember thinking, “i don’t want my baby to meet me like this,” but it was too late to even attempt to pull myself together. we had waited to find out the gender, and after josh excitedly announced that she was a girl, my doctor placed her on my chest per my birth plan request for “immediate skin to skin” and i remember worrying, “get her off of me! i’m going to drop her!” because i was shaking so much. but once they placed her on the scale, just a few feet away from the operating table where i lied as they put all my insides back together, she opened her eyes just the slightest as she cried and cried while they cleaned her, and i swear for a moment, she looked straight at me. it was a powerful moment. i instantly felt so connected to her, and knew i needed her as much as she needed me. and while i was maybe the biggest wreck for her first few minutes of life, we were going to figure it out together, and we would conquer, we would.
conquer, we try. successful at times, but coming up short at others. it doesn’t matter though, because the love trumps everything else. eleanor davis, you have brought me such joy. i love you forever and ever and while watching you get older is so incredibly rough for me around your birthdays, i look forward to all the rest of it, too. thanks for being my baby girl, for loving me and conquering life with such a wonderful zest. your adventurous spirit and your love for everyone all around you is going to take you places. you make me so proud. happy birthday!
a few photos from her little panda/lego birthday party yesterday:
you may have caught the process of these panda cupcakes being made on my insta stories. i followed this tutorial from bakerella. she sure made it look so easy! i found the tiny party hats last minute at michael’s while trying to find the right sprinkles. (never found them.) had to improv on the sprinkle part, but the party hats were cute!
so glad to have eleanor surrounded by such good friends. from school, church, and our apartment building. it’s an incredible group and that sure calms my worrying at times.
did a lot of activities around legos, since E is such a big fan and requested it for her birthday party theme. i didn’t take pictures of the other games we did, but these photos are from when we split the kids into two groups and they had to try to build the biggest lego tower in a certain amount of time. i forgot how competitive kids can be! gosh, it was crazy! especially with the “everything is awesome” song playing in the background (also her request). but so fun to see them use some team work to build some pretty impressive towers.
one team around the coffee table, the other around the playroom table!
samson was so in his element during this part! haha! he is the master of legos these days and spends hours building things.
for the party favor, josh had the idea to send everyone home with their own little classic lego kit. was fun for them because they spent the last 15 minutes or so starting to put them together before putting them in party bags and taking the rest home.
gosh. she’s so big! i shared a bunch of my favorite photos from her over the years on my instagram, if you want to see some cute baby photos! gotta go wipe these tears away now before she gets home from school!