i’ve been working my hardest at slowing down over the past month or so. it makes such a difference, which i think we all know, but it’s difficult to actually put into practice when we’re just so busy and set in our ways all the day long. my brain sometimes feels like it never shuts off, and i sometimes feel so stuck in this never ending pattern of the constant “go” as we all try to do everything all the time. as well as this never ending pattern to “scroll” as it applies to all things in this tech world.
i feel like i’ve already talked everyone’s ear off about our trip to st. george, utah, and you’re probably not even reading this because you’re so over it! BUT, while we were there, we witnessed the most magnificent pink sky one evening. we also witnessed the most vivid rainbow. and then, josh and i went out one evening to watch the sunset near his parents home, and that sun, rolling behind the mountains and red rock and desert foliage was so freaking beautiful, i left feeling more calm, more energized, more at peace with everything around me. and more in control of not catering to the “go” or the “scroll,” but seeking more of that calm and peace the nature around me offered up that evening. we took photos, because at the end of the day, it’s what we so enjoy. especially the times when it’s just us having fun with the camera and playing with the light and no one else is around.
i absolutely love this incredible earth we get to call home. she is full of such beauty, and she reminds us of the important stuff when we’re willing to slow down, look around and see or listen. i went home from watching the sunset and started deleting stuff off my phone. apps i don’t need, people’s feeds which i’ve so enjoyed but are also a distraction from my own life to be present in. it can be overwhelming when before you know it you’re following hundreds of people on an app. it just gets to be a lot. (and side note: absolutely no offense taken if you yourself do a similar cleanse of the apps and everyone you follow and realize following me takes away from your family time or your calm. i just want everyone to find their calm, gosh dang it!) i love the stupid internet but i also love keeping it at a distance. and finding it more and more critical to do so, though i’m sure it sounds ironic considering we’ve been so very lucky to have an income from a job tangled up in it all. i definitely don’t want this to sound like i don’t love what we get to do everyday, because i’m so very thankful and i feel it such an honor to have this sort of platform and that anyone cares to follow along or check in. i’d hate to see my words misunderstood here.
i’ve always felt i’ve had a good grasp on living life to live it, not for the instagram or the blog or the internet in general. but i still think there is always room for improvement, and i’ve enjoyed the challenge of finding something for my hands to do when i don’t have my silly phone in them all the day long. somehow that journey to find “calm” seems to happen more efficiently when the phone is not around.
i’m just so appreciative of finding and acknowledging the calm in our chaotic lives which i believe the internet often contributes to, and trying my best to make a solid change of habit to bring her, this incredible calm and quiet, into the forefront of my every day thoughts and actions.
a few photos from the beautiful sunset we enjoyed together in st. george one evening…