someone once said to me that they didn’t want to have have kids anytime soon because then they’d be missing out on life. i remember walking away from the conversation all sorts of confused. what one thinks is a life worth living will of course always differ from the next, respectfully. it’s understandable. we all want, need or value different things out of life. but also, i was probably the wrong person to share that statement with, as an already mother to three little ones at home. in response, i couldn’t do more than shrug my shoulders and be like, “…sorry, what?”
because here’s the thing. yes. of course. i’m overly exhausted, my boobs sag towards a much softer tummy that my kids love to lovingly poke and we often order in rather than go out these days because sleep (or attempting it) seems to take priority over having a social life. there’s a lot of getting up and shifting beds during the night because of a nightmare, “a glass of ice water, please,” or just because a tiny someone is in need of another someone to lay by them. i look around our small and messy apartment at least seven times a day and think, didn’t i just clean this?! and then try my best to not be annoyed when i can’t get daniel the tiger songs out of my head. regardless of how many times you swear they’ve picked them all up, you’ll step on a toy in the dark hours of the morning or find that someone took the ginormous parmesan reggiano block of cheese out of the fridge to snack on and days later, no one has yet been able to find it in the apartment (true story this week. we are still looking for it). parenthood, motherhood…. it’s not all glamourous.
but still, when someone says having kids means they’d be missing out on life, i’m the wrong person to relate to. because i thought life was pretty great before i held my first baby in my arms for the very first time a little over six years ago. and now, with three of my very biggest blessings in life sound asleep in the other room, i have to tell you, amidst the chaos and messes and nights of little sleep, there are tiny hands reaching up to hold mine throughout the day. there is the sweetest laughter and the most curious and earnest of questions asked. the spontaneous hugs with tiny pat pats given around my neck or the moment i overhear one tell the others how much they love mama’s soft and warm tummy. when you see them stand up for each other at the playground or cheer one another on. and their faces when they do so! when they see problems in the world through their innocent and untainted eyes and say, “but why?” followed up with, “we need to fix that. i’m gonna fix that.” and your heart bursts because you know they have the potential to do just that. that someday, they very well could fix that. the moment you watch them learn something new or successfully accomplish a difficult task they had been working towards for months. and then as they drift off to sleep at night, while you lay beside them stroking their hair or scratching their back enjoying a moment of calm, hear them whisper, “mama, i love you.”
tell me, what is this life i’m missing out on somewhere else? what could ever compare to this?
for me, i am living my full life. it’s better than anything i could have ever dreamed up for myself. being a mother, it’s been the most joyous and fulfilling years of my life so far. this chapter right now is the one i’d live over and over again if given the chance. and the one i feel most thankful to be experiencing. the lessons learned, the growth accomplished, the mistakes and successes and happy and sad tears combined, have been well worth it so far. i started living the day i became a mama and i wouldn’t trade any of it for the world.
today is a very special day, because i get to share with all of you some special photos that josh took of me and the little ones over the last week while i was wearing a few of my favorite pieces from the new sonnet james summer collection which just launched today! you might remember when whitney from sonnet james launched her very first spring collection a few years ago and asked me to play model in all the pretty dresses with eleanor and baby samson back in the day! we connected immediantly because i was so drawn to her philosophy of why she wanted to create playful dresses for playful moms. to help encourage and remind all of us with a little one in our midst to take grasp of this incredible chapter of life. to get down on the ground right along side our kids, in the dirt, in the water, in the sticky messy days that is life with little ones and be present. i am so honored to be wearing and featuring yet another incredible collection of hers this summer and feel all the friend pride as i see her continued success that i know she has worked her butt off to achieve.
you can see all the summer dresses (and playsuits!) right here, and also enter to win the entire collection (that is 21 dresses and 2 playsuits!) in your size below! details at the end of this post.
and now, some photos of me and my babies (i know they aren’t babies anymore but no one will ever be able to stop me calling them that. it’s just not going to happen.) but anyway, some photos of me and my babies in our favorite city wearing some of my favorite pieces from sonnet james’ newest collection….
to enter to win the entire summer collection, please visit sonnet james and leave a comment below telling us which dress or playsuit is your favorite! the lucky winner will receive all 21 dresses in the collection as well as 2 playsuits in the size of their choice. the winner will be drawn at random and emailed directly 5/8. you may also enter to win on instagram as well as right here!
thank you to sonnet james for sponsoring this post and giveaway!