i took the boys out yesterday morning and trekked nearly twenty blocks in the pouring rain to get them to an activity. they were safely bundled inside the stroller in their muff sleeping bags and feathered coats with their canopies sheltering their heads as i pushed them speedily along while attempting but failing miserably to avoid all the large puddles that gathered beside the curbs. also, the wind was a whole other story… she was seriously determined to blow me over. i’m not one for curse words, but in that moment, i totally swore.
fast forward to a little later in the morning, when i was trying to get a very exhausted conrad to sleep for his nap while samson was at his swim lesson with josh and he just kept fighting me every minute of the way. do you want to know how long it took to get him to sleep? part of me is embarrassed to even tell you, because like, he’s my third kid. and like, i should totally absolutely know how to handle nap time by now, right?! but an hour and a half later he was just starting to give in, an hour and a half later, which was an hour and a half i had planned to use to get some work done while samson swam. an hour and a half later, samson and josh returned home from their swim lesson within the same ten minute time frame of conrad finally closing his eyes and giving in to the sleep. i texted josh angrily from the other room that i hated everything. (it should be noted that i did send a follow up text a few minutes later saying i took it back.)
i didn’t set many resolutions for this coming year, mostly because i just want to continue working on the ones i set last year. but something i do want to handle better in 2017 are the stressful moments that happen in my day to day. i think i do an alright job for the most part, but sometimes when i am overly stressed out, i bundle it inside and then it kind of bursts at the wrong moment and i just don’t want that kind of public display to go down in front of my kids. or in front of josh, who is usually always around when the stress bubble bursts. i want to be better at just rolling with the punches, no matter the situation, for the sake of everyone around me. but more importantly, for my own sanity and wellness. i think it’s a good thing to tackle since many of my other smaller resolutions from last year seem to fall under this umbrella, too. like getting proper rest, continuing to exercise, taking care of my body, my skin, my mind (with lots of technology breaks this year, gosh golly!) and also getting back to my healthier eating habits (which really went out the window over the holidays. not that i’m regretting any of the nutella stuffed churros i may have encountered.)
so far, 2017 has been a rainy and wet one. it’s been a nonstop downpour for the past 24 hours and we’ve been outside for a decent part of it. we had to shuffle plans and activities and life because of the rain and i think it was a fitting reminder for me that so much is often not in my control, but to not stress over little things, and to just stay calm and say “it’s okay” and to just keep moving along, without bundling up anything stressful and taking it with me.
it’s going to be a good year. i wrapped up the end of 2016 with a couple of moments of incredible personal growth and in so many ways, it feels like several burdens have been lifted. don’t you love that feeling of letting something go? i think moving forward now, without letting the little stressful moments of my everyday feel larger than they may be, is a great next step. and i’m excited. happy new year, you guys!