the littles and i spent several hours yesterday at a nearby splash pad playing our tiny hearts out in the water. or the kids did at least, while mama enjoyed sitting on the warm cement nearby not doing a thing besides watching from afar. (i so appreciate this when my fatigue levels with my current pregnancy are out of this world higher than what i experienced with both eleanor and samson.)
having a two and three year old is like a dream for me this summer… no one is just learning to walk that i need to shadow, or putting weird clumps of dirt or leaves or other odd things in their mouths, and for the most part, they play nicely with each other and are at those fearless ages where making new friends everywhere we go comes easy to them. there isn’t much for me to do but sit on the side of the playground and observe…. only stepping in on occasion to reapply sunscreen, offer water or snacks or to mediate when the big boys (dare i say bullies? they were really getting on my mama nerves) would come by to pour large buckets of water on samson’s head.
maybe every half hour or so, little samson would come over and lay his tummy down beside me to warm up in the sunshine on the hot cement and keep me company. “hiiiiiii mama!” he would say. i’d comb out his wet hair away from his face with my fingers while he talked quickly about lots of things, only catching a few phrases or words here and there before he was off again to splash in the water. (oh this boy and his phrases! he is such a little chatter. always working in the word “firetruck” into anything he’s talking about. this is going to be so much fun come the next month or two when we aren’t just nodding “uh huh!” after everything but really understanding and comprehending everything he is trying to share with us!)
somedays being a mama feels more overwhelming than i’d like it to. and i struggle keeping everyone calm and quiet with my own patience in check. but then there are afternoons like yesterday, where you watch your little ones making new friends and laughing happily as they splash in water fountains and enjoy their time outside, where they happily acknowledge you when you tell them 2 more minutes at the end of the day with a smiling nod and miraculously come when you summon them once more to get ready to go. (it usually takes several attempts on my part to get everyone loaded up and on our way when we’re heading home from anywhere…) and all i can think is, i love this life so very much. my simple, though chaotic and hard-at-times, life as a mother. and here’s to hoping for a few more days like yesterday this summer, as we hop around to the different splash pads in this city while making new friends and working on our tan lines together.